I was first diagnosed with diabetes this February 2014. Since then it has been a roller-coaster ride when it comes to my emotions about suddenly having to cope with a permanent health condition that impacts my daily life.
The hardest thing for me to accept is that there is no cure. I will always have diabetes. I can control my blood sugar level with diet, discipline, and medication but this isn’t going away.
I’m worried about complications. Things that never used to think about.
When my eyes get blurry sometimes I think about a friend who went blind from diabetes. When there is a tingly feeling in my extremities I wonder if it’s diabetic neuropathy. When I feel dizzy, I have to rush to eat something because I could be hypoglycemic.
In past I would just have thought “oh, I must be tired” but now I worry that it’s diabetes.
The good news is that my doctor is actually pleased with my test results. Apparently my blood sugar levels are stabilizing.